York County, Pennsylvania, Dec 7th 1863.
We had marched for many days through the near frozen soil in little more than socks to cover our bare feet and little food to fill our bellies. My name is James Lee Earle of Ashland, Virginia, and I had just turned 17 years old. My brother, who was one year my senior, and I were both told that it was our duty to fight for this confederacy, we were told and taught how to kill the Yankees for the sake of our way of life, so we both chose to pick up the musket and fight, this we did willingly. I had been on the march with my fellow soldiers for that past year, and I had with my young eyes, seen many a young man on both sides fallen in the rain and snow drenched soil, as hot musket lead and mortar fire ripped apart their bodies, yes, I had seen many a good man, some blue, some gray, barely past boyhood. I had watched as their blood, soaked the muddy soil where they lye and breathed their last precious breath of life. I had seen the horrors of war up close and personal, and to that point, I had survived the tragedy, and then one week prior, I received word that my older brother Jeremiah had lost his life in a place called Vicksburg.
Still with musket in hand, I like so many others, with a heavy heart, and a terrible sadness troubling my every thought, together, we marched on. the morning before, we were no more than one mile from that place, in a beautiful grassy field, with rich dense thickets of oak and hemlock trees in the distance. We marched in double columns along a muddy road of which I knew not the name of, first came the rain, small droplets at first, and then we were besieged by a torrent, we moved perhaps another twenty yards along a long ditch, and then all hell broke loose, as cannon shot exploded around us tearing through our ranks. I was thrown through the air landing hard on my side in the ditch, I could no longer hear, as the violence swirled around me, the thunderous sounds of musket fire that echoed in my ringing ears became muffled, soft, almost distant cries of pain, brief flashes of light, drifted through the drops of rain and then ever so slowly my vision relented and everything went black.
I do not know how much time had passed, when my eyes slowly opened once again, it seemed to be a time of early morning. The distant sounds of chirping birds filled my ears, and although the rain had stopped ever so briefly, as I lye on my side in the wet grassy ditch, my uniform soaking wet, I reached for my musket and pulled myself up to the edge of the narrow trench. The sight that awaited my eyes, lifeless bodies of blue and gray stretched out for what seemed like miles, in the rain soaked bloody fields, nothing moved, for what felt like hours, but in reality was only mere minutes. Then, out of the corner of my eye, something moved. I wheeled the musket around, only to find myself looking down the barrel of a Yankee musket. We both froze, our determined stares locked, unmoving, both muskets poised, ready to fire, he stared at me for a time, and we both slowly lowered our weapons our eyes never moving from the sight. He was also quite young, perhaps close to my own age. Finally, I heard my own voice breaking the tension.
"You alone there, Billy Yank?" I asked.
"I think so. You Johnny Reb?" He returned.
"Well, I don't see anyone else moving, so it would appear so." I answered.
He shouldered his musket and moved up to the top of the ditch, slowly sliding down in beside me. We both stared down at the ground for a time, both of us trying to catch our breath. We sat there, both unsure of what was to follow, were we enemies? or, at best-for a time, cautious allies? he told me his name was Samuel Thomas Geddy, from the small town of Bixby, in the great commonwealth state of Massachusetts, and he too was merely seventeen years of age, older than me by two months. After surveilling the horrifying scene that lay before us, we had determined that we were indeed the only two survivors of that engagement, and tentatively we reached the agreement that we would call a truce, and seek refuge from the storm clouds that were gathering over our heads. We retrieved several haversacks, filled with rations and ammunition for our muskets, before we set out into the woods seeking shelter from the coming storm. We followed a long winding trail through the thick woods, Samuel Geddy concluded that the battlefield we had left behind, was more or less a mile and one half, then to our rear.
We walked up and over two more small forested hills before the next drops of rain began to fall though the canopy above us. We came to a clearing and there below us were two small buildings, we unshouldered our muskets and approached with caution, slowly making our way up along the side of what looked like the main living quarters. There was no movement inside either building, so we cautiously entered. Whoever had been living there must have heard that we confederates were coming because they had left in quite the hurry, leaving behind much that we could use. Our desperation had gotten the better of us, we had found dry clothes, in an old chest of drawers, many that would fit, there were dry socks and I even found an old pair of shoes to wear. We wasted no time in removing our wet uniforms, and securing them inside our blankets with twine. The dry cloth felt warm against my skin, and I sat with my back against the wall, for the first time in many months it felt good to be alive, but what we found near the door made our bellies rumble, there was a large basket full of fresh fruits. Apples, peaches, plums and apricots, we filled our haversacks, and opened the front door.
We did what we had to do and then decided that we would wait for the storm to pass in the small barn house beside the main. If the owner came back during the night, we didn't wish to give them a start while being inside the main house upon their return, so we went to the small barn house to wait. Once inside we could see that there were several work benches that lined one wall, beneath those there were bins made for storing fruits or vegetables, we'd guessed, but it was getting too dark to see what was in them. Above the main entrance there was a small hay loft, even in the failing light we could see the pull down ladder, and Samuel pulled it down and one at a time we climbed up and made our way to the back. Darkness settled in around us, and though we were both tired, sleep eluded us both, and through the long dark night we exchanged stories of our lives before the war. We each spoke of our families, our homes, where we had grown into the young men that were too soon forced to become. We spoke of fishing trips with our brothers and fathers, and the love and pride that we held fast in our hearts every time we had stared into the eyes of our loving mothers.
We had talked long into the cold dark rainy night, we spoke of our little sisters, of teaching them to ride their first horse or tie a shoe. We spoke of walking alone down a country road lined with cherry and apple trees, holding hands with our sweethearts, of stolen sweet kisses, and promises made that we might never get to keep. Finally, we spoke of the fear and unbearable shame that we'd felt for the first time, when forced to take the life of another human being. How would God finally judge us? We both wondered out loud, though finding bitter and cold discomfort in the question, we quickly changed the subject. The night drew colder and even darker than before, and the rain, though it slowed at times, never did quite fully relent. As sleep finally began to tug at my weary mind, I found solace in the fact that I would never again see Samuel Thomas Geddy as my enemy. When I woke the next morning, Samuel was already awake and had retrieved two ripened melons from under the work bench and cut them open, we ate fresh melon and soaked hardtack. With our bellies full and the rain slowing to a slight drizzle, Samuel produced a compass, and told me that his father had given it to him before he'd left home to enlist, "Now son," his father told him. "No matter where you go, you can find your way home."
We walked along the grassy side of the muddy road, leaving the small farm house behind us, we walked almost one hour before the trail had ended in a fork Samuel used the compass to tell him the way north, and he told me the way south, "We should probably stay off the road for a while until we can both be sure we can find ourselves in friendly company." He said. I nodded in agreement, he smiled at me, and for the first time in over a year I smiled back at another human being without suspicion, without any hesitation, without regret. "Be safe James." He said. "You too, Samuel." I replied. He turned, as a look of melancholy crossed his face, and then another small grin pushed his lips up at the ends. "See you around sometime, Johnny Reb." He said, slowly extending his hand. I took his hand and offered my own smile and then replied. "Not if I see you first, Billy Yank." I watched him for a time as he turned and headed north, his figure getting smaller and smaller with every step, until he finally disappeared over the small rise. I walked for a time until I found a hollowed out log, I sat down for a while, lost in thought.
I wondered, why grown men had to do such terrible things to one another, simply because they looked different, or wore different clothes, or waved different flags, or thought different thoughts. My mind briefly returned to Samuel, I wondered, how it was that two young men, were able to find common ground, young men, much younger than those chosen to lead whole nations into the perils of war, because they simply lost the ability to see first how we are the same instead of how we are different. I suppose talking as such is difficult when some have simply lost the ability not only to reason, but to listen as well. My heart was heavy, the ugliness of war having scarred my soul. War, is an ugly animal, ugly and cruel, a human invention of cruel and ugly men. It destroys, murders the human flesh and spirit, and leaves nothing but death and suffereng in it's wake, it truly is a tool of the devil, and shall be the ruin of all who engage in it's practice. A distant sound pulled me from my thoughts as I rose to my feet, the horse and rider wearing the red and gray uniform rode silently toward me. I shouldered my weapon and stood resolute. My fate was no longer of my own making, for in my heart, in my mind, no matter what they did to me? this war? I shall have no more of it.
Epilogue.
Bixby Massachusetts, Tuesday, September, 17th, 1889.
My mind, it has returned to me, my soul though permanently scarred is now at peace, I, through a lot of perseverence and determination survived the destruction of that horrible war, and eventually I returned home, my brothers body was recovered and returned to our parents who laid him to rest in Travis cemetary in Ashland Virginia. I was twice injured, the last time a lead shot went through my right calf and I could no longer walk without a cane, I was able though and returned home in august of 1864. I became a wine merchant and still own and operate that business to this day. And now I sit here alone in this club car, I can feel the vibration of the train as it lumbers along. Armed with the information the detective agency provided me, I await my final destination, as the train slowly rolls to a stop. I look to my own hands as I write these words, both aged considerably by time and violence, I raise my head and in the mirror I see gray hair that plays at my temples, but the eyes that stare back at me are those of a 17 year old frightened boy, forced to do horrific things that he can never unlive. I rise from my seat and remove the response to the telegram that I had sent two weeks earliar, on the response were three words written, "I'll be there." As the train rolls to its final rest, I step down into the station yard my eye's searching through the small crowd, until I see him there, the face has aged but the smile is unmistakable. Samuel Thomas Geddy and I shake hands, and share a brief embrace, both our shoulders shaking slightly as we openly weep. Two brothers in arms, with a shared experience and a common goal, to live the remainder of our lives in peace... As brothers.
The End.
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